attn: everyone who read my blog=)

it is a long story..
i'm in a relationship with him again..lol..
i know it is very funny and childish..
but love~can't explain~

=)
it is a long story..so i'm so lazy to write down the whole story..
btw, some of u know about it~so i'm not going to write my story out..
sorry guys~=)

it hurts..

i will not get him back le..

i wanted to..but i can't..and i won't..

he dun love me, if i get him back..i will hurt more..

and i think i will lose too..

baoen, crystal, eequan, weizhong..

thank you for company me these days..

=)

laopo, laogong, wo ai ni..these are what u and her wrote on the blog..

when i read this..my heart pain..thn my tears starting to roll down on my cheeks..

nvm la..u feel happy..

thn everything i do is worth le..

thanks..

thank you..

thank you for the sentences..

i keep thinking u said that juz wan me to stop loving u..

i keep forcing myself to think that u said that bcuz u love her! n u don't love me!

but anyway..thank you for the sentences..

i won't find u anymore..

n i will kick you out of my heart..

remember your promises..

be good to her, not to hurt her and love her..

i'm hurt today..

very hurt..

i cried again..=(

i argue with my bro..

thn i called him..i am so stupid!

i dun wan to call him..but dunno why..i automatically call him and tell him my bro bully me..

he keep asking me don't cry..and ask me what i want now..

i said dunno..

i dunno what i want..

thn i calm down myself and asked him: you hurt yourselves because of her?

thn he asked me don't ask..so i said okay..

thn he asked me why i called him..i said i automatically called him de..

thn he said: u cannot like tat de..I GOT GF DY..

when i heard that..i cried..tears rolling down my cheeks uncontrolled..

thn i said: okay..sorry for disturbing..i will never find u anymore..

thn i straight away end the call..

i keep crying non-stop..

and i speak to my mirror..=.=

i said: munyee..u cannot like tat! u should forget him! u should stop loving him! he don't love you anymore! he buy chocolates for his gf! n not for u!

from now on..

i will make myself busy and stop thinking of you..

i can de! i can kick you out of my heart!!!

i can de! you're not worth for me to remember! and not worth for me to love!

i will keep all the things that you gave me last time in a box..including the soft toy dog..

that tin of candies melt as our loves end..

my heart is just like this apple full with wounds, needles and plasters..

爱-哀

我不能再那样下去，
我只会伤害更多的人。。
他有了她，她也有了他。。
我的出现只是多余的。。
我在他心目中只是人生经过，人生的一部分。。
她能给他幸福，我不能。。
我只会伤害她们。。
况且她也应该爱上他了。。
我不会再找你。。
我会让你放下我。。
去爱她。。对她好。。不让她伤心。。
而且他喜欢的是她，不是我。。
他担心她而不是我。。
他拥抱她而不是我。。
他亲她而不是我。。
他爱她，才敢亲她，才会亲他。。
不是因为他当作她是我。。
我跟她不像！一点都不像！

他自残的点子可以一石二鸟。。
说是为我，跟她说是为他。。
他怎么都这样。。
一次一次的说谎。。
我对他很失望。。
我会控制我自己不让我在陷入进去。。
这只会让我更受伤。。更痛苦。。
我已经天天流泪。。我不想再这样下去。。
我不会再让他喜欢我。。

food~=D

omg! i ate a lot today and i still feel hungry..-.-

i ate mi hun at 1035

thn ate lunch at 1400

thn ate maggie mee at 1730

it is 1925 now..i'm hungry..=.=

i ate once in two hours!!

no!! i dn wan to grow fatter! no!!


mercury
no! i broke the thermometer just now!
i touched the mercury..
i scare got allergic reaction ah!!
how?! T.T

lalala

everythings really come to an end now..
love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss and ends with teardrops..
actually it ends one month ago..
now..J has a new girl..
and J get his happiness..what i get? loneliness?
nah!! i get my friends~=)
but wei zhiong go indon liao..i quite lonely in class de..=(
never mind~i got my darling>> baoen~

i'm not jealousing..but i feel unhappy when i look at J's blog..and his gf's blog..
i don't feel that she is better than me..truly..(sorry..i know i'm perasan but..i'm saying the truth..^^) her eyes is so damn big in her photos..but her school's photos that don't have any make ups and never edit, she look different..a big different..really..
sometimes..when i look her profile, i really wanna type there: stop acting! your eyes is not that big..
but i'm a 'wise' and 'kind' person..so i never type it to her..XD!

i feel that my post today quite bad de..
haiz..i'm abnormal these days..but i wan to tell out my feelings..
so sorry..=)

why am i so stupid?!

lee mun yee! you're so stupid!
he is a liar! he lie! he juz wanted to revenge!
don't believe him ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

t.b.c! why r you so guilty?
i think u really hate me a lot..
you still in a relationship with her..but you ask me to accept u again..
what la..what you wan?! she's with you and you get yr 'TRUE LOVE' ( i dun think she is)..
why you still wan to ask me and being good to me?

i'm not going to accept you..and i won't accept you anymore..
u'r my friend and never more than that..
i'm trying to kick u out of my heart..and trying not to hurt anymore..
but you hurt me again..
i almost success to kick you out of my heart and let 'somebody' to hav my heart..
why you wan to ask me to be your gf?! what did you wan from me?!
please la don't 'treat' me like that..
yr mom never teach you never tell lies?